What To Do

So here I am, sitting on my computer, applying for jobs and watching Nat Geo Adventure in the backround and with impending doom on the horizon for my job, all I can think about is "Gee, I would love to do that!" while watching these people do crazy stuff and travel. Well, that sounds bad, but what I mean is more that I would love to work for a place I had a passion for.
Travel - I have a passion for but with a lack of admin experience etc, getting a job in an office is nearly impossible. Craft - something im good at, but can you make a job with that? Food - Who isnt passionate about it!
So Im left sitting looking for jobs I dont want because my inbox is full of rejection email after rejection email. Sigh.
Does anyone have any ideas?

Raya X

The Happiest Day Of My Life

I cant believe its over!

It is amazing to have a husband! I absolutely love it!

The day went off without a hitch but that is all thanks to our friends.

Weddings are such a stressful time - I'm glad I never have to do it again, but in saying that I have been blessed in such abundance with my friends. We had their support and love the whole way and without it I am quite confident that we would have caved under the pressure.

I prayed for years for a Husband that loved me above all else and treated me as such but I also prayed for friends I could love and trust. As I prayed, I saw bits a pieces of my prayers being graciously given in the 4 boys that supported me through the hardest times of my life. They were my rock for many many years and they still are.

As I got older I started praying harder and one day I met a man that I fell in love with on sight, to whom I am now married. Along with him came some amazing women. They took me in almost instantly and one of them is now my most cherished friend.

Its not until now, that I look back and see Gods fingerprints on my wholly unworthy life and that after many years of praying He poured out His precious gifts so graciously.

I found that over the course of our Engagement I had to lean on these friends much more than I would ever like to admit and than, Im sure, they ever expected. But they still stood strong. They held me up when I cried, they listened to the same thing over and over until at some stage whatever I was repeating made sense in my mind and they endured my completely different personality.

In saying all this I need to say THANK YOU to everyone involved. Our wedding would not and could not have happened had our friends not put up their hands to help us out.

We are truly blessed to have you all.

Raya X

8.30am Panic!

I woke up this morning absolutely panicked about the wedding and everything surrounding it!

Its 5 weeks today! So close but still feels so far. There is still so much to do. I guess there really isn't when I think about it, but my control/panicky nature means I like to go over everything a million times and have a backup for everything AKA I complicate things always and then freak out cause Ive made everything a million times harder than it had to be hahaha!

Also, Id like it noted that I was awake at 8.30am today! Its a new record for me on weekends!

I think Im getting old because I do love a good sleep-in but Im really starting to hate the whole "wasted a whole day" consequence. Weird. Didnt expect that any time soon.

Heck its 5 weeks till Im a married woman! Im so so excited! Sometimes I think Id like to be a wedding planner because Ive had fun doing this and I always find these awesome things for a wedding. Maybe that can be my new career prospect? Maybe not, I dont deal with stress very well and dealing with bridezilla's everyday would drive me bonkers. So this last paragraph was a bit pointless. Not deleting it though.

Anyway, Im off to enjoy this lovely part of a saturday morning I never get to see.

Raya X

Sometimes I think about things

Well its 5 weeks till the wedding! I cant wait! I never ever thought I would actually be able to say "I get married in less than 6 weeks!" but now that I am, its the most exciting thing ever!

It makes me think so much about what it means to be a wife and what my future entails! I have this picture perfect idea of a 5 bedroom house with a giant kitchen and double oven, surrounded by a white picket fence, children playing in the front yard and me standing on the street in a gorgeous floral dress, perfect hair and makeup, talking to my friends who also live on the same cul-de-sac with their children playing on their front lawns too. Ahhh. Perfection.

Now the real picture I know will be completely different, but in the perfect world of Raya, this is how it is. Let me dream.

But in all seriousness, the wedding feels like forever away but really its not and I really should get on top of everything other than shopping for things hahaha!

I bought some gorgeous striped paper straws for the wedding, which I fell in love with!

I got some Grey, Blue and Pink ones and Im dying to use them!

Anyway, Thats enough dreaming for one eve.

Raya X

Some Of My Favorite Pictures From Paris

Wow! What a long long gap!

I have been thinking about this blog for a while now! I keep meaning to post but never get around to it. But, here I am...
Ive been so busy lately! Wedding plans have tended to side-swipe me on a daily basis and this hideous exhaustion thats going on in my body is getting a bit out of hand. Im finding that Im constantly exhausted and by about 3pm Im at vomiting and crying stage. Sigh. It has been so great the last few weeks as I have been getting through the day well and can last till about 11pm but the last few days have been pretty bad again.
So sitting on the bed relaxing and watching birthing shows on Foxtel (cause Im weird) I decided to peruse my old blog and here I am. Boring you with my rambling. Infact Im boring myself. So I might go and sleep.
Hopefully see you kids again soon,
Raya X

White Chocolate Profteroles (Choux Buns)

Every Wednesday I only have 2 kids to look after at work, so I've started doing some baking with them in the afternoons. Last week we made White Chocolate Covered Choux Buns. They are delicious french sweet buns that are usually filled with cream or custard. Profiteroles are very similar but just a little different.
These were so easy to make with kids and so delicious to eat.

Ingredients:

• 80ml (1/3 cup) water
• 40g butter, at room temperature, cubed
• 50g (1/3 cup) plain flour, sifted
• 2 eggs, at room temperature

Method:

1. Place water and butter in a saucepan over medium heat. Cook, stirring, for 3-4 minutes or until butter melts and mixture just comes to the boil.

2. Add all the flour to the butter mixture at once and use a wooden spoon to beat until well combined. Place over low heat and cook, stirring, for 1-2 minutes or until the mixture forms a ball and begins to come away from the side of the saucepan. Set aside for 5 minutes to cool slightly. Whisk 1 egg in a small bowl and set aside. Whisk the remaining egg in a small bowl, then add it to the flour mixture, beating well with a wooden spoon. Gradually add a little of the reserved egg and beat until the mixture just falls from the spoon but still holds its shape.

3. Preheat oven to 200°C. Brush a baking tray with oil to lightly grease. Spoon 25-30 teaspoonsful of the mixture onto tray, about 3cm apart. Alternatively, use a pastry bag fitted with a 1.5cm-diameter plain piping nozzle to pipe the profiteroles onto the baking tray. Brush the tops with a little of the remaining egg. Bake in preheated oven for 25 minutes or until the profiteroles are puffed and golden.

4. Remove from oven and turn the oven off. Using a skewer or a small knife, pierce the base (or top) of each profiterole to release the steam. Return the profiteroles to the oven and leave them for 15 minutes to dry out. Remove the profiteroles from the oven and transfer to a wire rack to cool.

This recipe is from www.Taste.com.au


Raya X